An old friend asked me to borrow some money. I had to go to the bank machine to take the money out and when I went down there I started typing my old PIN. The PIN I had when I was using…pretty wierd.
Lots of feelings came up today I hadn’t seem this friend in three years and he wasn’t doing so well, but I have seem him much worse. Anyway I didn’t get high and that is good but I can’t say I even remotely liked being that close to who I use to be. It is totally scary.
I am glad for my friend I have hope that he will do the right thing in the next few days and he can begin him journey of recovery.
I wish things were black or white, fucking grey is all I see.
I went to the rock gym tonight and got frustrated. I think it is funny how men piss all over their women. Argh. I suppose if they are anything like me they probably are afraid of loosing them.