OH! Sometimes it is just so fucking difficult to always show up for life. I got things pretty easy, I mean, I don’t have a family steering clear from the societal norm. But, fuck man, I gots me own problems!
What is it about getting down to the nitty-gritty that I want to avoid. I do so fucking well for like 95% and then that last five I just totally suck. Anyway I was in the five percent today and just totally wanting to give in and not follow through. The sad thing is I know where that gets me and I just couldn’t even live with my own bullshit.
I called a few people and just realized there was no reason I couldn’t go to a meeting tonight. So, pissed off, I went. It wasn’t bad and I definately got what I needed.
I got back home, chilled, and watched a movie. Joined netflix over the weekend, but rented the movie from somewhere else. My first netflix movie will be in tomorrow.
Damn man I am really glad I followed through today. It’s all about that five percent and fuck me if it isn’t the hardest.