Saturday
We walked over to the Alamo in the morning and then headed over to the convention center for a meeting. After that we met up with Jay’s Aunt and cousin for lunch.
We ate at the Tower of the Americas which was very good. The tower stands 750 feet and the restaurant rotates 365 degrees in 60 minutes.
Off to another meeting afterwards and then headed over to the Alamodome for the main meeting. It was really powerful and fulfilling.
We were set to go to see ZZ Top after the main meeting but decided to just hang out and checkout the dances going on. Others said the show was great but I really didn’t have any interest in sitting any longer :).
Walked around for a bit…Checked out Jeffery Osbourne singing and met some new people.
Sunday
I was feeling pretty emotional (as I had been the whole weekend). Once we were at the Sunday morning meeting the main speaker really hit me. I identified and knew I was in the right place.
In the afternoon we went over to the Cowboy Dancehall and did some line dancing and watched a real live rodeo! It was fun but bull riding is a bit crazy and one of the rodeo clowns got messed up by a bull. Pretty violent stuff…
The night led to more food…Ugh…So much food. I am so sick of food. No more eating big meals for a day or two. I just can’t do it anymore. As I type this post my stomach actually hurts.
I have thought a lot about a lot of things since I have been here. Most of which is using and relationships. My mind keeps going back to the fact that I have not yet found anyone. Sometimes I think the bull riding was fitting since maybe like a bull I just throw someone who ties up my balls and tries to ride me off my back.
I just don’t know what my problem is when it comes to relationships. I know I can be very demanding and unwilling to settle but does that make me incompatible with everyone? Ahaha I know that is bullshit but whatever.
I do know one thing the next time I meet someone I am not going to sleep with them for awhile. I think that sleeping with someone to soon speeds things up to quickly. I don’t care about my age or anything like that I can go as slow or as fast as I want. If the person I am with doesn’t dig it that’s cool.
So about using: It is typical for me to want to throw it all away. I am coming up on an anniversary (September 16) soon. Using and relationships or my most significant relationship, Kate, comes up for me so it all makes sense and is right on time.
OK we are going to SeaWorld. I will take some pictures of some fish. I wonder if they have a sushi bar there…
That would certainly ironic.