I got so much accomplished today! Woke up and hit a yoga class and then went shopping with a friend. After that we hit the Oasis for a soak in the hot tub. This has become a Friday ritual for me. On my day off since I’ve gotten back from Teacher Training I’ve been going to soak in the hot tub :). After that a bit of tea and then it was back home for me to rake the front yard and then do laundry! I was happy that one of my roommates came home and helped me with the yard. Otherwise it would have taken me much longer to rake up all of the leaves. Our house is really nice but it just doesn’t get taken care of which makes it look all ghetto like.
Once I was done my laundry I jumped into bed and watched a few episodes of Shameless. I’ve been laying here ever since and now I’m ready for bed…
It was a really good day. So nice to hang out with a good friend and get so much stuff accomplished. It is really nice to communicate with people. To exchange information with others and let them know who we are and learn about who they are. Bikram talks about this all of the time – the telecommunication system. Hah. It’s funny how when we talk to others about the stuff we believe, or think we believe, we in fact learn more about ourselves. I’m a work in progress. Not a clue as to what the end result is going to be but honestly I don’t think that knowing is the point…
Being present and participating as best I can in life is really all I can do at this point.
At one point tonight I was thinking that I just wasn’t capable of being in romantic relationships. Then I thought about my most recent romantic relationship and how it was totally great and I was able to show up better than I ever had before. It isn’t that I’m not capable probably more the point that I’m not willing than anything else…Nevertheless it takes a lot for the waves to be right for surfing…Hopefully I won’t have to wait another 36 years to find someone I’m willing to commit to :). The good news is that if that’s the case I’m cool. One thing I know how to do very well is be alone. Over the years I’ve found that I’m pretty dammed good at being myself when I’m alone. But I recognized the real challenge is being able to be who you are in a relationship. I’m not talking about being rigid and not changing or evolving but being able to not freak out when the evolution takes place. Faith, trust, hope, courage and strength all necessary tools in keeping it together…
I definitely think I’ve grown over the years, but there is still plenty of work to do…yep my life today is definitely not boring :).