The day started out with Emmy’s class. I was setting up my mat and looked over to my left and saw Brandy! I ran over and we caught up and then class started. Emmy totally killed us. She came over to me in Eagle and said “Ugh. What is that? That is NOT a Bikram Yoga teacher!” She made some adjustments and walked away. When she said that I couldn’t help but smile because I knew on the inside that she knew I could do better. Of course I didn’t know that but that is why she is a great teacher.
I’d been really struggling the past few classes. I mean really fucking struggling. Just feeling like death and at the end of my rope almost every class. I haven’t felt this way since my teacher training. She kept us in triangle for so long on the right side it felt like I was going to die. I just felt so sorry for myself. When she had us go over to the left side I couldn’t help but start crying. Past experience has taught me that letting emotions out is fine but you really have to be careful because when you start crying your breathing goes out of control. I acknowledged the fact that I was sad and felt sorry for myself but realized that I had to keep doing the postures and that was the only way.
The room is so hot and humid just totally insane, but that is teacher training and how it HAS to be. No exceptions. Every class so far has pushed me to my limit as Emmy says “working the edges…”
Afterwards I went out for lunch to this Mexican place down the street. Then I remembered to send out a card for my Mom. If it weren’t for her I wouldn’t be here now and I’m grateful for all her hard work raising a hooligan like me :). I don’t think the card will get there in time but…
Back at the hotel we got ready for posture Clinic. I paired up with Brandy and we went off the hear eagle…Clinic was great! Again I learned so much and it is so rewarding to give feedback to future teachers.
Class started a bit late and Judes took us through breathing and then Raj came in and took us through the rest of the class. She definitely took it easy on us but holy shit was it hot! Even the “easy” classes are so demanding. Being pushed to the limit day in and day out has such a transformational effect on the body mind and spirit.
I’ve definitely been angry upset that I’ve been so uncomfortable. I realize that I do so much to make myself comfortable. Gotta have this gotta have that. Get rest here blah blah blah…Something I should really look at when I get back home.
After class Henri and I hit this really cool Thai place. Food was pretty good…it was nice to have a sit down meal for the first time all week! 🙂
Phong came along with his son! It was really great to see him. We hung out took in a bit of Dr P. and then I headed off to bed around 10:30