Well I spoke to soon with respect to art.gnome.org. One of my pictures were uploaded finally. It is a nice feeling to know that I contributed something to a cause that has given me so much. Maybe I am making way to much out of this but there is no need to explain.
The point is my picture was accepted and it is even on the front page!
I have been trying so hard to get everything done and the past few days it seems I have been a total failure. There was a time I would never work this much since I would fear it triggering a relapse. What has changed? Why am I pushing myself? What do I expect to gain? What am I afraid of?
Woah! Wait a minute I haven’t seen my therapist in like 5 weeks! Jesus man there it is…wow…that is f’ed up. Anyway I am going to see John on Sunday so I will talk about all of this stuff with him and maybe get a better perspective of where I am at and how I can move forward.
I really like this drupal thing. I am glad to be back to journaling. I hope people visit my site. I suppose that would require me telling them about it! 🙂