So it is Wednesday…I have been all over the place since I got back from California. Hung out with some friends this weekend, went to the convention, got back, went to work, went climbing, meeting last night and here we are at Wednesday morning.
So much to say but…nothing. Stay at the surface it is safer. Argh. What the hell is the thing that draws two people together? What is that force that pulls people in a similar direction. Actually if you marked each persons starting points you would see that in order to come together, or for their paths to intersect they would have to be going in opposite directions.
Sigh. So what is the force? Is it gravity? Collective Conscience? Tony Robbins? Malcom X? There must be some answer out there…Sometimes I think it is just identification. To look at another person and see something that is familiar. The undeniable attraction the spirit has to that which is familiar. Painful as it may be the force of that attraction is so great it allows people to continually mess up their lives with no thought of consequence.
Love is the great creator. Love is a great destructive force.
I have been alone for so long now I am starting to think there is no hope for me. Don’t get me wrong I am not hopeless, far from it. Its just a state I get in when I haven’t been in a relationship for awhile. I’ll be fine. I like the pain it’s fun and reminds me that I am human. I spent so much time not feeling a thing. I’ll take the good and bad feelings just the same and be happy that just for today I am human.
Peace Out.