I figured I had to write something. So here it is something. Just a little bit more than nothing but not that much luckily that is all it takes for something. There is a bit of each in either. I am tired and have been for the most part for the past few days, but have been showing up for all of my responsibilities. It is important I say that stuff because there was a time that I wasn’t showing up for much of anything.
Things have been a bit better a work in that I am feeling more engaged and part of the process. I think it helped that I spoke with my boss about the way I was feeling and he was able to relate with/to me.
I dunno. A lot has been happening with me emotionally. I am in a relationship and that is huge for me. I am mystified by just about everything about her. She is so kind and has such a wonderful spirit. Since I have been involved in the process of recovery I realized that certain aspects of my personality and human development would not be revealed until I was in a healthy, open and honest relationship. I am really grateful to have finally found that, but that doesn’t mean there still isn’t work to be done with respect to breaking down the walls that were created over the years. Self-centered thinking and low self-esteem can be a toxic combination for a new relationship and I have been doing my best to process what I am going through so that I don’t become a toxic bomb.
Well that was more than something and not less than nothing. I have to get up early tomorrow for an orthodontist appointment.
Night.