I’ve been so sensitive the past few days. I’m noticing in my day to day activities feeling alone, separated, and isolated. I know I’m not alone. I have so many great people in my life and I work hard on a daily basis to better myself and help others. I don’t like it when I feel like this because then I start feeling jealous of others and want to be included in everything. The reality is that I’m not going to be included and I’ve got to be OK with that. Imagine how it would feel if everyone wanted to include me in everything? I’d have to say no all of the time!?!?
I’m really glad I can see this and recognize these things for what they appear to be in the moment. Anger, jealously, whatever it’s good that I can see them and let them go. What really helps me is asking myself “How am I being selfish right now?” I can usually see it within a second or two…Yea it still hurts and all of that but at least I can take action to move forward in a positive direction and not self-loathing or some other character defect.
I guess it’s good to feel apart because you can use that to know the opposite which is feeling connected. It is so funny because all of these things are feelings which are hardly reflections of actual reality and more a product of my past and my cumulative emotional state…