I had a good day today. Spent the day doing and teaching yoga. It was tough really tough. I’ve never been so sore in my life in ways that are really hard to explain. I’m glad that I got through it all and am now sitting on my bed writing this.
Mostly my days involve teaching and practicing yoga. I spend a lot of time around others and very little time alone. Most of the time I am alone I’m sleeping or getting ready to go to work. Time alone is really nice. For me it gives me the opportunity to reflect on the day, relax, write, and think about things.
I like being around people don’t get me wrong but I also like some time to be by myself. It’s always about balance and I’ve just got to find mine in this new life. So much has changed over the past 6 months it’s pretty crazy. Nevertheless I’ve learned so much about myself during this time, but most importantly I’ve severed the connection between all of the things that I thought were me: my job, computers, apartment all of that stuff.
It’s always possible to start over. Now I feel like I can take a job working anywhere it really doesn’t matter. To make money I can do whatever pleases me or maybe even something that interests me. I really like teaching yoga it is so challenging and rewarding at the same time.
I’m looking forward to hitting a meeting tomorrow night. I’m grateful that I’ve developed so many tools over the years to help me stay clean. One of those tools is this blog. I’ve been writing in an inconsistently consistent fashion for the past 8+ years. It’s really helped to get thoughts out and let them be whatever they are. For me it wouldn’t be the same if they were hidden in secret somewhere.
I don’t know what will come of all of this but I’m sure happy to have the opportunity to experience it…