Man Oh Man…
I’ve been struggling to get to meetings this week. And when I have gotten to them I really didn’t want to be there. I don’t know maybe I’m just making something out of nothing again. Part of me has just been feeling unwilling to go out of my way to go to a meeting. Like tonight I didn’t feel like trekking out to Brookline so I opted to go to the meeting in Central Square. Low and behold the meeting in CS has been closed. Bummer. I totally could have made it to Brookline but I just didn’t want to go knowing that I had a bunch of stuff to do at the apartment.
Maybe it is just where I’m at…We’ll see where it all goes and I’ll be sure to let you all know if I relapse 🙂 As of right now I’m really not willing to throw my whole life away.
One thing that came up for me the other day had to do with feelings and situations. Nothing crazy but it just seemed like everything I did was just causing more problems. I talked to a lot of people about it and I think next time I’ll just sit with the feelings instead of processing it right away. There is something to be said for just letting things be.
The last thing that’s been on my mind is this date I had last week. It was a good date. I thought we hit it off. The next day I texted her but never heard anything back. I just wrote it off thinking that she just isn’t interested. I suppose I could send her another text or call her but I really don’t want to go down that road. Why can’t people just let you know when they don’t like you? It’s hard I get it…Plus I’m fucking hot and a total rock star. Sure I have plenty of areas of improvement but all around I’m solid physically, mentally, and spiritually.
I dunno maybe I just need to relax a bit and not take things too seriously.