I was the first one to go up and deliver standing bow pulling pose. I felt confident that I knew the posture so I figured why the heck not. Anyway I’m not really sure what happened but partway through the posture I got tripped up and lost my place. Once I recognized that I didn’t know what to say next I just jumped forward to a part of the posture that I knew the dialogue for.
In the end I got them in and out but it wasn’t even close to my performance on my other deliveries. Honestly it sucked. I had been doing so well and I suppose I’m pissed too because I know the dialogue. Ahh I don’t know…but I do know that I didn’t feel as connected to the students while I was saying the dialogue. I could feel that something was off.
I probably should have waited until tomorrow to do it but I did my best at that moment and it is what it is…
I’m not letting this make me gun shy with balancing stick. I’ll go up there first again it really doesn’t matter. I’ll keep practicing and maintain a positive attitude. After all I have to realize that I am going to have bad days when I am a teacher and I will have to get over it and keep teaching.
That is exactly what I did in posture clinic today the rest is just ego. Looking forward to balancing stick tomorrow or the next day we will see…