Can anyone tell me what feelings are and where they come from? Scientifically I suppose I can understand the concept but in reality the feel so much worse than simply a collection of results emanating from electro-chemical responses in the brain. I am sure there is a much more rigorous explanation but that is good enough for me.
Nature vs. Nurture is something while in school I am not sure if I really *got*, but I do get it now. It is really unbelievable how we become who we are. And the whole question of nature vs. nurture revolves around, at least for me, what part of our nurture influences our nature and changes who we might have been. I suppose some would argue that nature is unchangeable or simply a set of characteristics that can be generalized across a large set of things. Maybe I should hunt around for a definition (one talks about the world without people hah.). But wait how could nature be unchanging with respect to people when we have yet to cease to be? Our story hasn’t been completed (since we are still here) so it must follow that nature must be something that is collective and evolving. Much more work would need to go into proving that but for the sake of this argument with myself I guess I accept the fact that ones nature is the genetic predisposition + environmental factors + nurture.
At some level I am pulling nurture out of the environmental factors which nurture undoubtedly is part of. It is separate for me because it is such a big issue for me. Who and what I am is directly related to the way I feel I have been treated, rightly or wrongly, by my environment. The give and take, happiness, sadness, willingness, isolation and destruction. These are all responses to the world around me.
Was it my mother? Or maybe my father? Who didn’t give me enough love? Who gave me too much love? I am confident that there are no answers and there is really no point in finding one. As the process continues it is up to me to work through the feelings especially the feelings that I have no relation to anymore because they are triggered complex chemical reactions reminding me of a time I have no reference point to anymore or even worse a complex barrier installed so that I don’t commit hari-kari (sepuku). Whatever the case may be processing these feelings is painful and I like many others wants nothing more than to sedate, isolate, or destroy these feelings. The problem is that feelings, like farts, have to be passed in order to make room for the evolution of the self and spirit. Not very nice but what am I going to do about it :).
So put it up smash it and put it back together. That is what the universe does and is doing over again and again. It does it fast enough to give rise to all of this, us, everything and in such a way that we actually think we are here and have a purpose other than to just be. Wow. That is truly amazing and who the hell am I to disagree or think that there is something more than what there actually is?
Food for thought or maybe not all I know is that I feel better.