Throwing it all away….
Imaging waking up and thinking “God I would just love to throw it all away…” The continuation of a dream that never ends. The dream that just sits and waits until you are at your weakest to then take from you everything that you have ever had. What is worse is the fact that I am a willing dreamer albeit not by choice but a dreamer nonetheless.
Speaking of dreams I had a crazy one last night. The whole cast of characters: mom, dad, kate, some people from other circles and some from different squares. No matter where you go there you are and as I dream I dream about wanting that feeling to go away or come back depending on how you look at it…It isn’t special and this doesn’t make any sense but it shouldn’t to you or to me or to anyone else for that matter. Just a big run-on sentence, fragments, glittered with punctuation that just doesn’t fit. Or does it? No it doesn’t!
I can picture myself on a multi-state run. Long hair, beard, but without a horse aside from the one on my back. Funny thing is I wouldn’t be able to leave any state and I would probably cut my hair to keep the people that fund my fantasy at bay.
Anyway…I know all of this shit and yet I think about it anyway. I am just trying to find my way through all the smoke and mirrors…