Man…I’m trying. I really am. I have a dumpster full of shit that I have been sifting through for the past five years and there is still more to go. If I ever knew the pain drugs would cause on top of what I have been through in my life I would have never used. I am much to weak to use drugs and I can’t believe I did for so many years.
It really is amazing the zest I have for life after all this shit that has happened to me. A good friend once said “Aaron I can’t believe you aren’t jaded. That has always amazed me.” I am not a miracle worker or someone special just another one of us trying to make it through a foggy hazy life that is not always so well lit.
I am feeling a bit down today and that is OK, but it hurts. Another good friend told me “feelings aren’t fact, but there feelings.” I am so thankful for the people that I have in my life today I really don’t know where I would be if it weren’t for all of them.
I am not giving up. I simply refuse.
I am tired today but it isn’t the end of the world. Off I go armed with coffee and tonight I will hang out with another friend and climb.