I really love the feeling I get when I wake up in the morning…It doesn’t happen all of the time but some mornings I will get up, eat, make coffee, and walk over to my computer and get a song in my head. Then I put it on and get this feeling to write down how I am feeling. That what I am feeling right now is really worth mentioning just because it is a feeling. It doesn’t have to be good or bad just recognition that just for today I am alive.
I tell you man I have been going back and forth in my head so confused. One day I know what I am feeling and the next day I am right back to the confusion. Well it isn’t confusion some days I feel one way about something and the next day I feel differently about the same damn thing.
I was at a meeting the other night and was looking at this guy and his girlfriend. He had his arm around her and doing some sort of normal territory marking. I am not saying it isn’t cool to put your arm around your girlfriend I am just making a point that there is a subtle difference wit gentle public displays of affection and spraying down your area. Hell people do this in their own way even on their own :). Whatever was going on what it kicked up for me was that was something I didn’t want. I don’t want to have to mark my territory. I don’t want to have to fucking prove things to others especially my peers.
I dunno there is more that I need to say but I just don’t have the time right now…so I guess this is a work in progress. Maybe there is more that needs to be revealed to me. Maybe there is something that I am missing or seeing that isn’t there but I think it is. Maybe I am the one who is confused. I don’t know…I do know people don’t listen all of the time but who am I to talk I don’t listen all of the time either :).
Insert some bullshit about beliefs here.
Hah. I have to go clean my bike. Peace out.