Yea man…The fucking beat goes on…ringing in my head like the sound of a two string slide bass…mmm…it sounds so good…
I met up with a buddy of mine from the using days. We went to a meeting and then grabbed some food afterwards. He was doing well and it was really cool to be at a meeting together. Like I said last night this is a total example of how this program works. For him and I to be clean and at a meeting is a total miracle. For that I am grateful…
It is really funny how friends can unlock certain memories that would otherwise remain locked up. I met up with another friend last week. We went out to lunch and the memories started flowing. He expressed to me how that night he wasn’t sure what year it was, or where he was :). I think it is cool how we as people have the ability to remember these memories and in consequence momentarily can regress (not in a bad way) into the memory.
…Interlude…
I was on my new bike when someone cut me off. I pulled up to their windows and let them know that they almost hit me. I did this with tact and not totally aggressively. He said “I didn’t see you.” To that I replied “Well, keep your eyes open.” I rode off and heard him say “My eyes are open…”
Five minutes later he was behind me flailing his hands and screaming something about my demise. He pointed at me as he chanted some curse and immediately took a left hand turn away from me. I suppose chasing me out of Arlington wasn’t what he had in mind. Maybe he couldn’t leave Arlington? I think it would have been just great if we would have had a fist fight. It would have been over the fact that I told him to keep his eyes open. Yes he felt slighted that I reminded him if he couldn’t *see* me it may help if he kept his eyes open. For me I would have fought well just for the physical challenge. May the best fucking man win. I’m game. Lets fight. Sure it won’t solve anything but when you look at it from the challenge perspective it is great. No funny stuff blow for blow and lets see who is left standing. I am sure I will win some and loose some…I can sure take a beating, but I think I have to get better at giving them…
I did feel bad that I excited him. It really wasn’t my intention to piss him off. I just wanted to let him know to look before he just cut over to the right. I suppose I should just deal because most cars a effing assholes to bikers on the road. I don’t think it is intentional just the fact that they are preoccupied with whatever they are doing inside the car. Take this guy for instance: he was drinking coffee and eating a danish when I pulled up to his window.
I am not innocent here I do the same shit when I drive. I don’t exclude myself from any of the shit I talk about…I just try to write this stuff down so that I can see how it looks and hopefully make a different choice when I am on the other side in a given situation.
Look at things from all sides and then choose…