I had just gotten out of the shower after yoga class and then it hit me: So many people were coming to be part of the celebration of recovery. I sat on the bench thinking about all of the years that had past and all of the connections, the friendships, and love.
Not long after that I was sitting in the park waiting for a friend when I decided to call my sponsor. As I was leaving him a message all of the emotions came flooding back to me along with some tears.
Meeting time came around and I got to see so many people I hadn’t seen in a while. I felt so grateful to be there and to be clean. Early in recovery when I was really nervous I would go into the bathroom and ask my Higher Power to help me carry the message of recovery. I still do this to this day :>.
I share from my heart. Somehow I make that long journey from my head to heart and let it out and share it with all of my friends in recovery. For me it is the least I can give to everyone that has given so much to me. If it weren’t for everyone in my life I would still be alone and miserable. Today is much different and I hope that whatever comes out of my mouth can help just one person realize they no longer have to keep living the way they are living. Any addict can find a new way to live.
We all went out to eat and got home really late. I crawled into bed with all of my recovery cards and in my normal tradition read all of the wonderful comments that people wrote. These things keep me clean. I’m so glad I continue to make that inner connection from my head to my heart. I know that it will only grow stronger as I continue to progress in my recovery.