Well it’s true that you get what you need…
I sold my couch in preparation for the move and whatnot. Right after we got it loaded into the truck and I came back upstairs the doorbell rang. It was my landlords mom and she was sad. I immediately thought something had happened but when I asked her she said she was sad because I was leaving. So I started crying too because I’m sad to go. She said to me “Aaron I hope you’re making the right decision.”
I told her that I would stay in touch and that I would be back soon after the training. We talked for a little while and then I came back upstairs. That is when the water works hit. I was overwhelmed with feelings and just started crying. I know that this is the right thing for me to do but it is definitely difficult. A common phrase amongst Bikram yogi’s is “The right way is the hard way.” And man does this feel like the hard way.
A friend asked me to speak at the meeting tonight so I did. It was pretty cool. Sometimes it can be hard to speak. I always get nervous before speaking and I was nervous tonight. But once I started sharing my story it just came out so clearly and effortlessly. I mean it really should I am after all talking about myself. Anyway as we were leaving a friend said it was really good to hear me share and I said to him “Thanks…it was like Higher Powered” It really felt that way, like the nervousness that I feel before speaking is just me getting out of the way and allowing my higher power in…
Pretty cool…