I started off the new year with an intense yoga class. Actually it was my first and it was pretty interesting. It was pretty hot. I really liked the fact that the teacher had us write down and intention for the new year. She stressed that resolutions are about fixing whereas intentions are about just doing. I really like this way of thinking since it suggests there is nothing wrong with me (us), and that I (we) are nothing more than the sum of our intentions. Anyway my intention for 2007 is forgiveness.
I was told that the class was not a good example of a traditional yoga class so I told my friends I wouldn’t generalize and try another at a different studio. Whatever. I really don’t care it was fun to try the positions and I didn’t know what to expect so I really didn’t have any expectations about how things should go.
It has been a long week and while I have had it off I got a lot done. I was able to help others and that is and always will be a blessing. I am sick of this life being about me and my bullshit it is time I started giving back to others and being a bit more selfless. Besides shit run much smoother when I am not paying any attention to myself 🙂 (I mean that in the most general sense.)
I am not afraid to go back to work tomorrow. I was talking with a friend earlier and he said “Hey Aaron I am going on vacation tomorrow.” I said “Really?” He said “Yea I am going back to work.” He started talking about how being home from work was no fun after awhile because he missed his friends and his daily routine. I identified and realized that I had nothing to worry about about tomorrow. What the hell is the point of worrying about tomorrow today? Or today tomorrow for that matter…God knows I do that all of the time remembering my failures, inappropriate reactions, and whatever.
Someone in the class set the intention of nothingness. I wonder if they honestly meant that or were just trying to be smart. I just wonder if it is possible to be non-discriminating…
I’m tired.