I had a great session with my therapist last night. We worked on some core issues and I left there feeling pretty beat up but in a good way. The discussion (about disassociation) came full circle back to the way I am forced to disconnect in order to preserve my sanity in certain emotionally challenging situations.
I met up with Barry and Magdalana right after for a bite to eat and then Barry and I went to a meeting. It was really powerful and I got what I needed and was able to hook up with more friends. I spent the night over B & M house and got the best night of sleep I have gotten in awhile. Don’t get me wrong I definately don’t have trouble sleeping, but this sleep was different, it was more sound or something…
The morning came and we all hung out another friend came over and we all chatted and caught up. I helped out reorganizing their computer setup (that is so much fun). I really like arranging things! Anyway I had some things to do back at the office so I took of and headed back to the city.
Spent some time working and finally got a break at 6pm. Went to another meeting with a different friend and was able to see yet another friend celebrate. Got back home and boom back to work trying to figure out this problem we are experiencing.
I went through some feelings at the meeting tonight. At one point I was really pissed off and just wanted to quit all together. It is so funny how feelings and emotions can just fly off the handle all of a sudden. I don’t know where the anger comes from, but I raised my hand and shared my experience and what was going on for me at the time.
I am going to be celebrating soon…I am going to ask my dad & sandra to come down…
OK. On the geektip I got a BlackBerry 8700g. I haven’t had much time to play with it but it was a snap to set up.