Gimmie, gimmie, gimmie some good times
Gimmie, gimmie, gimmie some pain
Dont you know things always look ugly
To me they always look the same
Yea! I was off track a bit and figured I should get back on it and move further down the al pha bet. I am up to G. Yay for me. Things have been going OK. Recovery, work and the whole shebang.
I have been spending a lot of time working on learning CSS and catching up on what I have been lacking in the web-space. Tons of stuff to learn.
I feel like my boss and I compete pretty often. I am sure he would *never* admit that but it is there I can feel it. It pisses me off and I don’t like it. What I hate the most is that I must participate in it since it affects me. Sometimes it gets to me so bad I just want to quit and never work with computers again. I know that it has nothing to do with my boss and everything to do with me and I am responsible for my side of the street.
I suppose it comes down to the fact that I have been separating from work lately. It feels like I don’t have a voice there and a worker bee is all I will every be so be it. AHAH. I have been trying to align myself and remind myself that I am working for someone and it isn’t my company so I just have to listen to my employer and “do it”. That sucks and is freaking boring. I have absolutely no deliverables or timelines or anything. Shit I think 90% of what I am working on, for work, is like stuff I made up that would make things at work easier for us all. That wasn’t direction sent down to me by management but thought of by YOURS TRULY.
We will see what happens. I have been here before and moved through it. I still think there is more for me to do at work, but there are other jobs out there and I am confident that wherever I end up people will be happy to have me. I am tired of being stuck and have faith that I will get the good orderly direction that I need…
Now I just have to get over myself and I will be able to hear that direction! AHAHAH