Argh. I don’t know what is going on today. I woke up this morning in a totally shitty mood. I had a freaky dream last night so weird I wouldn’t dare write about it here. Nah I’ll hold on to my secrets. Fucking weird dreams…Anyway that’s not what I pissy about anyway. I’m going back to teacher training for one week and I’m torn between staying in the host hotel and staying down the street. Why I’m torn is because the cost for the host hotel is 120/night whereas the hotel down the street 1.0 mile is half that. I suppose I shouldn’t be torn since it is an easy decision as it’s about half the price. The thing I’m torn about is the convienence of being in the same hotel since after the yoga classes I’ll have to walk a mile to shower and then a mile back to attend the lectures and whatnot.
I’m just being a baby. I want my cake and eat it too. It’s too dammed expensive to pay 120/night on my own and I can’t find anyone to share the room with me. In the past I wouldn’t think twice about paying the money. Now on my new salary I have to not only think about it but take action to not say fuck it and spend the money. I suppose I just want to make the wise choice and if that is spending the extra money so be it but I’m still not sure what I want to do.
Well I’m glad I got this shit out of me before I teach the class this morning since I don’t want it to come out there…I feel a bit better and know that things will work out I just have to be willing to be uncomfortable while I’m figuring it out.