Lately I have been getting up on the odd days and meditating for fifteen minutes or so. I just get up and walk over to my couch and sit there. It isn’t long before the thoughts come into my mind and I start to feel the need to move and do the next thing. That is when I will chant something or just accept that I am restless and cannot settle my mind. Sometimes I focus on the birds chirping or the air that is moving around me. Other times I just open my eyes and start stretching.
After meditation and stretching I drink water and it feels really good.
Like anything else I start strong and then start to fade off. I suppose that is just how it is since life forces us to be anything but rigid. Or maybe it is rigidity that is the cause of aging. It is OK because I know that any time I choose I can meditate or can recommit to doing it the next day or the next day or the next day.
I will meditate tomorrow morning.
I am planning to climb tomorrow with my friend. I haven’t been to the climbing gym in over two months. I took some time off to let my back heal and just take a break from working out. I really have to watch it tomorrow and make sure I don’t overdo it. It is really tough for me to do when I am “in it” and climbing. I want to do everything in my power to make it and succeed. It is so silly that I look at things that are not “life and death” as “life and death”. I have gotten much better at that also…
Many people have been calling on me lately. It feels so good to be needed and wanted. My first reaction is always to help but at any time fear can get in the way of that and interrupt the process. I am glad that it hasn’t and I am able to be there for others. God knows so many people have been there for me ALWAYS.
I am grateful for that, and that I can be there for others too.