OK. I know. I know. Anyway here we go again. Just wanted to take a minute to get a fresh perspective. Things have been going OK for the most part. Time and time again it seems like the same thing: not enough time. It is really challenging to get to this journal sometimes. I have plenty of time throughout the day where I screw off and am not doing anything constructive, but do I write? No!
I was on my way to the meeting tonight and I got a glimpse of Mass Ave. Flashback to a time when the getting was good. I was pulling up to Satellite Records to sell some stuff that could be sold. There I was with all my records marked for clearance ready to rock and roll. I remember the person that bought stuff off me warned me “You know you can’t get this stuff anymore? Right?” I think I told him I know, but I didn’t and OH boy I really didn’t care. It was amazing to be happy that I was getting a fraction of what I paid for something that was in his words not replaceable.
I just remember how I saw the street and how I felt. I mean I was happy that day because I had money to get high, but man was I desperate. Everyday.
Argh. I get angry sometimes. Nothing I am going to talk about here, but man do I get pissed. I know that is OK but it sucks…