Make a decision and then tell me what comes next? Well you actually have to act on it. Yesterday I decide to sign up on match.com, because, you know I’m going to find my soul mate. Well actually I was just trying to take some action so I don’t end up like a little whining puppy dog crawling back to my X.
So I make this decision and was really hopeful and then reality sets in…I have to sit there and look through all of these peoples profiles! Holy shit what a waste of time. I probably shouldn’t look at it like that but I just can’t help it. This is the reason I wasn’t down for the online dating thing. I spend so much time in front of a computer on a daily basis that I don’t want to be looking for someone to date on the computer also.
How the hell are you suppose to be able to pick someone out from the thousands of pictures and eloquent personal essay’s? “I like long walks on the beach, and short walks off piers.” Go drown.
I don’t know man…this just seems so weird to me and not something that I want to do. I’m out of the online dating thing looks like I’ll have to find something which involves me meeting someone face to face. Maybe I can check out that lunch dates stuff and see what happens there…
Can I just say that the state I’m in about my current situation is really pissing me off. I’m 36 and not even a hint that anything is going to fucking change for me on the relationship front. I’m trying to hang in there but its really getting tough. I don’t know how much longer I can hold on without getting jaded and just turning into a complete prick. Hell maybe that has already happened.
I just have to try harder. I know I can’t give up but man I’m not getting any younger and I’d freaking like to cash in on some one the opportunities I’ve only seen in other peoples lives.
Anyway I’m done…Before I go I’ll leave you with the best line from 500 Days of Summer….
Summer: I just woke up one day and knew
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: All of the stuff that I wasn’t sure about when I was with you.
And so it was my friends. The female-fuck-you vibrating the souls of men for generations to come. The almighty stripping of a suckers heart-a fool for love. Shit man I lost mine a month or two ago and I’ve been searching for it ever since.