Today was pretty cool. I woke up did some cleaning and then headed off to the climbing gym with Rich and Kris…Overall I felt pretty strong today and was very happy at my improvement around seeing Heather and her boyfriend David. I’ve never met David but that is what people tell me his name is. He is tall and thin and likes to climb and ride his bicycle, hmm sound familiar? I got a good look at him this time and he doesn’t look anything like me aside from being tall and thin. Anyway the both of them were moving around us throughout the day. I was mostly concerned with Rich’s lead test so there I am trying to focus on what I am doing but at the same time thinking about them two.
My heart was pounding but I started up the route and totally forgot about them and was completely focused on the task at hand…
I wonder if it is uncomfortable for her too? I mean it really isn’t that uncomfortable for me anymore since I started doing the work to get through this. Maybe she has also and simply came to a place in her life where she realized it was him all along? Hopefully. I wish them well. Me? I’m glad I’m right back where I was before I met her, alone, but once again forever changed.
What is really funny is the realization I had the other day: Both she and I are exactly where we were before we met-she is with him and I am single (I’ll say single instead of alone). It is funny to look at it that way surely we were both changed by our experience but the game board reset and it’s back to our starting positions.
I’m glad its over so that something new can begin.
Once I got home sat and talked to my neighbors and enjoyed the heat. Afterward I went through my apartment and went through all of my draws and cupboards getting rid of anything I could. My goal in the next few months is to get down to only the essentials. A side-effect of that is feeling good about getting things in order. Basically I have so much shit mostly stuff that I don’t use or need so that means it needs to be either given away or sold.
I hit up the Dosa factory for dinner…mmmm….I just love that place!
Back home, movie, and now this, not so fluid but sometimes that’s just how it comes out…
Peace