The feast was this weekend. It marks another year of the celebration of life. I had such a good time talking with friends and making new friends. I am so grateful to be lucky enough to live here. I am not confused that I, like everyone else, have a higher-power working in my life.
I was recounting the story of how I came to be here in East Cambridge. In doing so I was able to re-feel the feeling on that first day when I walked down here from work and stood by the house. While I was standing there I could see the chapel for Cosmos & Damien and I realized this was going to be the place for me if the landlord thought I was the right person. It all worked out and the rest is history.
I am so loved here and because of that I have the strength and fortitude to love others. I want to pass on that love because I know what it is like to feel the pain of not being loved. There is nothing more damaging than hating yourself or thinking that you are not worth it.
What is so funny is that people really like me and to this day I am still amazed and wonder why :). I know I am a good person but I still have a lot of work to do in undoing, or rather, accepting who and what I am. It will come in time and while I am waiting I will do my best to accept the love given to me by others and do my best to pass some love on to others too!
There is no better feeling than the feeling of being part of something…