I never finished my last post, but in the process of writing “blah blah finish this later” I sort of realized there is really no specific thing to continue and the moment is lost as soon as it’s gone. It isn’t sad or anything just a reality that things just keep going on…
I woke up this morning and though about rushing into work. I don’t have any milk so I am drinking black coffee this morning…It was while I was doing the dishes that I realized it isn’t easy to always have something to say. I have said time and time again that I use this as a tool to express my ideas about me and the world around me. And that is still true today. I think I was cleaning a pan when I thought “Maybe an ideal state is to not have anything at all to say.”
Who knows?
I had a great weekend. I spent the entire weekend with friends. Yup. No time to sit and ruminate all alone in isolation. Consequently I had a really good weekend. Don’t get me wrong I think that time alone is very important, but I have tons of memories of being alone. Life for me lately is about creating experience with others so on those times when I am alone I can remember how cool my friends are and how cool I am :).
I had been thinking about getting a new bike for awhile now and I had told my friend Cat who works at a bike shop. She was hell bent on me not getting a hybrid (which is what I currently have) so she had me test ride a tri-cross. Holy shit what a freaking nice bike. We rode down the bike path and it was really cool. It seemed like 99.99% of all of the energy transferred from my legs into the pedals came out of the bike. Really cool. I also took it out for a spin in the woods and it handled well. I will have to get use to the handlebars or maybe get some different ones but overall I like the bike and the whole cyclocross idea. Very practical and practical is good in this case.
Climbing all day the day before to a fifteen or twenty mile bike ride the day after. Nice. Very nice.
Ibuprofen.
And now the initial thought for this post. Darkness road…
I went to see Bryan Mcpherson, Penny, & Richard play at the Abbey Lounge. Bryan had asked me to help out and I was really apprciative of that…I love to be able to be there for others. Doing this forced me to get outside of myself and ask people if they would like to sign up for the mailing list and whatnot. Wow. That was harder than I thought, but I have all of the skills and a smiling happy face.
Who can say no to me? Plenty of people, but it’s OK just move on and keep smiling. They aren’t rejecting me just honoring what is important to them, or maybe just stalling for time, who knows. It isn’t for me to know or really worry about…
One guy was way too cool to sign up for a mailing list and I started to get an attitude but kept myself in check :). This wasn’t about me…
Back to Bryan…
He wrote a new song called Darkness Road. I don’t think it is recorded yet so you will all either have to go see him play or just wait for the next record. Anyway the song is just amazing. The theme that drew me in was one of being left alone in a place that is one of the lonliest places anyone can be in. Being brought in love or life or whatever only to be left in this place where no one or no thing can take the pain away.
The lyrics are magical and for me it’s a hit. What moves me the most within the lyrics is the pleading nature from the protagonist “don’t leave me here on Darkness Road”.
God I have been there before…all alone. Shitty. Building me up only to take me out and leave me here all alone. Wow. Well fucking done Bryan! You rock!
All of this hanging out lead to the fact that Sunday didn’t suck as bad as it normally does :). Maybe I will go through it today or tomorrow, but whatever it’s not as bad if it isn’t on Sunday…
Work today climbing tonight life is good yea it’s all right…
If you haven’t checked them out the Drive-by Truckers rock…
I’m alive and that is good. I owe it all to my friends :). Rock on…
Friends