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Today was the first day at my new job! Everyone was really nice and I felt very welcomed and part of the team. I have a lot to learn but…

Today was my last day working at http://www.monitor.com. It was tough to say good bye to everyone and continue on my journey. Over the past few years I have developed…

Sitting on the plane about to leave...We were originallyy on the 11:30 flight to Washington but they put us on the 10:40 direct! All in all it was a good trip. I sort of freaked out on Friday but was OK after I got some sleep. I am making a commitment to work on my fourth step. I think we are getting ready to leave soon. I am grateful we will get home a bit earlier.

AAAAAHHHHHHH! i am falling apart. The dam was just great. I am a lot more tired but we are sitting here at lunch about to eat. I hate myself right now and just want to be left for dead. I am so tired and have nooo gratitude. It is so funny how feelings change. It seems like no matter how hard I try to explain no one will ever understand. Not that it is anyones obligation to understand but it would be nice.. How can I explain what I dont understand myself. Well more later...

We are almost at the Hover Dam. Lake Mead sits on the horizon. Last night was nuts just another example of what happens to me when I stay in situations longer then I should. Sometimes i think I am crazy but I know better. I just haven't done the work I need to doto recover. i need to continue to progress through the steps. i no longer want to hold onto this insanity and pain. Las Vegas is a dangerous place and I am grateful there are people here I feel comfortable around. Maybe I am sheltered... Maybe I am just plain silly... Damn we are at the Dam.