Sometimes I just don’t know. The feelings come and they go and its for the best you know but sometimes they show the silly facts of feeling flow.
I was at the gym this morning and I had just finished my workout. I was sitting on a mat stretching out and boom it hit me.
I was in Kate’s house in Sudbury.
The memory isn’t such a big deal but the thought I had right after it was: My memories are part of me. Sounds pretty simple but I suppose I have been ignorant of that fact for awhile. Sometimes it is the simple things that baffle me. Sometimes I just need to acknowledge the simple stuff in order to move on to other stuff.
How does this relate to me? Well, there is nothing I can do about who I am. I have no control over that. Who and what I am is what it is as they like to say. Who the fuck is they in that sentence? 🙂 I am they you are they we are they! So hey fuck it!
I have been pretty fucking serene lately and it feels odd. Well no it feels good but argh I don’t know…I don’t want to ruin it by talking about it :).
I just really feel connected to everything around me. I was standing there taking a piss and thought there is no separation from me to the air around me. Any separation that exists is created by me and the more I can allow myself to be without separation the more things will be allowed to be and I will be in harmony with that which exists.
Huh?
Sleep awaits…