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I was pretty pissy this morning. I’ve been upset about not having any money or the ability to earn a decent living. It isn’t *that* bad and I have to cut some more stuff out of my life. Namely eating out and whatnot, but I’m also realizing at this rate I’ll never have anything for the rest of my life. Basically on this salary I’ll be able to support myself and nothing else. I knew all of this going into this but I don’t think I really understood the implications. Before I left for teacher training I thought to myself well what is the money that is being generated from my job doing for me? Well nothing really because I was spending it all! If I were making that type of salary again I could easily save enough money for a house or some other such thing.
My current situation will never afford anything much more than supporting myself. I want to stay committed to teaching and work towards owning my own studio someday but it is hard because I know that I can get a job in the computer field and make five times my current salary.
There are other benefits to teaching that I love and it is worth the trade off. I think I’m mainly bitching because every month I’ve been spending too much money especially on eating out. I have to not do it anymore. Now I’m seeing someone and I want to be able to take her out and not have to worry about things but I know at some point I’m going to have say “I can’t afford it” and that really pisses me off too.
So there I was teaching pranayama and thinking about all of this stuff. It didn’t feel very good. I was definitely resentful, but I realized these students shouldn’t have to suffer because of my decisions. These were my choices and I made them no one forced me to do it. I could have stayed at VMware in my little comfortable life making lots of money a year, but I chose this.
Anyway I got my shit together by Half-moon and taught a great class.
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Fun class
12 – Tomo
Third class standing up for the standing series. Ankle felt pretty good all class there were a few times I had to take the weight off of it and rest it. I was able to grab my right ankle in standing bow.